I can’t understand. I just feel like all the others are having fun without me, like everyone else is doing better than me and I’m just a lonely sad person while they do whatever they want when they want. That’s because they don’t let me grow up. They still think that I might get in trouble without them and that I can’t do anything by myself and that’s not fair because I can’t even get a chanse to prove that they are wrong.
I need to show them that they can’t keep me safe forever and that I cand do things myself. I’m not the type of kid who get’s in trouble, but they just don’t understand that if something happends, it happends with or without them.
I feel like I’m their little puppet and they’re afraid to lose me… and my friends are the oposite. They show me they have fun without me, they have no idea how much it hurts that they don’t even try to insist or at least make you feel better. It’s the worst nightmare, to have around you people who can’t let you actually live and also people who won’t ever care about how you’re doing if they’re having fun. That’s why I need a new fresh start: without my so called „friends” that never think of me or how I feel.
I just hope I’ll find some people who will actually care.
P.S. Sorry for english, but I just needed to tell this to someone…but not anyone. Someone that could definetly understand, and I know all of you understand english…